Monday, June 6, 2016
A Case of the Mondays
It's Monday. Again. Oh, how I loathe Mondays.
For anyone who really knows me, you know I struggle with depression and anxiety. Lately, both have been hitting me full force on Mondays, more so than any other day of the week. Without getting into why that may be, I've been thinking about what this means in terms of my reading and writing because, honestly, it has an impact on both.
Let's start with reading. I've found that when I shut down to everything else, one thing that really helps is escaping. And how does a bookworm do that? By reading. When I cannot function properly to accomplish daily activities, I can always read. I can step out of my own crippling world and find somewhere else and another pair of eyes to see it through. I can gain perspective through a character's situation, struggles, and triumphs. And even if things don't end in a preferred happily ever after, I can usually come out of my funk knowing I finished a book (and if you recall my book slump troubles, that is an accomplishment).
As far as writing goes, I've had a mixed bag of experiences during my low times. There are days where writing just seems like the only natural thing to do because I can be someone else, someone not struggling with depression. But I've also had WIPs that I had to step away from for months at a time because I get so sucked into what's happening that I end up in an even worse downward spiral. And that really doesn't help anything, much less make sense of escaping to begin with. I also have one WIP that is indefinitely sidelined because no matter what my mindset is going into it, the very real and equally important issues and themes slay me beyond recognition.
I actually worked today (life doesn't pause when you're depressed), so I haven't had my chance to escape yet. But I do plan on putting a nice dent in my book at bedtime tonight.
Does depression or anxiety impact your reading or writing? I'd love to hear any tricks you've found for coping or books that helped you escape!